Hormo- Rollercoaster

Crying. Laughing. Angry, Crying.

I have been reduced to lists of emotions. I just keep segueing from happiness to sadness. I have cried at the television so much, mostly over nothing, but bawling at the minutest perceived injustice.
Watching the award-winning 24 Hours in A&E and bracing myself for a sad ending - watching a 90 year old man describing how he felt after his wife of 65 years has passed away. He looked bereft.

I wailed - literally couldn't stop the tears. The husband was looking at me in a very alarmed manner (well not that alarmed, he knows that under the prickly exterior I am a big soft marshmallow).

If I'm not being a big soppy mess, then I am a seething mass of irritation - the littlest thing will send me off.

Apart from emotions the food situation is starting to get me down.
It starts first thing in the morning, with an aching and gnawing hunger helpfully accompanied by nausea - and the only thing that helps is to EAT something. Eating whilst nauseous must qualify for some sort of self-harm!

After this, the nausea subsides but is replaced by a general uncomfortable full feeling. This remains all day, with lunch and dinner turning into 4 or more snack times during the day. I haven't eaten an adult sized meal for about 2 weeks now and red meat of any kind is just not appetising.
In fact most things are not appetising - I want to eat vegetables and fruit but cannot bear the taste. Instead I am subsisting on what my husband calls 'yellow' food - breaded items that are 'cooked' in the oven and eating with lashings of ketchup.

I really hope this particular symptom goes away soon. I am trying to balance the unhealthy out with yoghurt, dried fruits and lots of water. I long to eat salad or a stir-fry but the mere thought even now is making my stomach churn.

Roll on week 12!!

I have my first antenatal appointment today with my new GP at 7pm and hopefully I'll be able to get my booking appointment soon.

Symptoms - just a general apathy, loss of appetite and the HORMONES!!!

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Up and Down and Back Again

The irony has not escaped me. Only last week, I was trawling through websites trying to figure out if no morning sickness was a good thing or a bad sign and hoping, wishing for some sort of nausea.

Well you'll be pleased to know that I not only had morning sickness, but I had afternoon, evening and waking up in the night nausea.
It hit me with such force on Sunday night, that I was spitting up blood - which kicked off a new frantic search on the internets. However, it seems my aggressive throwing up was enough to hurt my throat and it was nothing more to worry about.

Since then, it's been eating crackers upon waking and keeping my handbag stocked with muesli bars. Annoyingly the only things that I can eat seem to be simple carbs and fats like cheese and crackers, small portions of creamy rice or pasta and bread. Vegetables are bloating and anything with an ounce of taste wants to come back up!!

The other half has been amazing, waking up earlier than me to get me a cracker or biscuit and making me teas on the weekend. He even did all the housework yesterday - I might have to get him an apron!

This weekend I did manage to have a little lunch party with some close friends and told them about the pregnancy - they were overjoyed, especially as one is mum to a 7 month old and can't wait until we can keep each other company. Being a mother can be a lonely profession at times it seems and she couldn't wipe the smile off her face!!

I had a dream about telling all my other friends, just need to get to the end of the 12 weeks and hopefully a successful scan. Meanwhile, it's back to the bathroom.

Symptoms : Feeling all day/night sick, painful breasts which come and go. Skin is clearing up however, Still very tired but sleep quality a bit better.











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